I signed in on this account with the intentions of writing all my thoughts, all the pain i feel, everything but i sit here @ this keyboard with a blank mind, NO THOUGHTS, NO feelings, I never thought my life would get to this point...I can genuinely say that it's got the best of me, It had me fooled, everyone had me fooled. I have nothing to say anymore, I don't know what to do, or where to turn..I know better than this, I really do but I can't seem to take in any of my own advice right now, but isn't that how it always is?? We can dish out some of the best advice for everyone else, but when it comes down to ourselves, we break down little by little..there's so much pressure on me to do so much and I try so hard to live up to everything I can be for everyone else I forget about myself and now im left to fend for myself and i NO LONGER even know myself... and now it's down to this... The problem is I know i'm strong, I know ill get through EVERYTHING thrown my way, I know god, or whoever will help me through the hardships, and I know they all happen for a reason, I have NO PROBLEM writing these things down, I have no problem saying them to other people, MY PROBLEM is putting them in effect in MY life..
